My Next 30 years

I've been wide awake now since about 5am, with some excitement for what today brings, but also dread for today. As I reflect on my last 29 years how wonderful they were, I was born into an amazing family, I have amazing sisters and an brother as well as brother in laws and a sister inlaws. I was privileged to know and be raised by a mother for 15 years. I enjoyed my time with her in those 15 years I learned tons of lessons that I apply all the time. I found myself and who I wanted to be, I discovered talents and non talents, Perhaps one thing I discovered and found to not only annoy me but I love about myself is my determination to not give up. I have found in many occasions (nails, even lashes and more) that practice can make perfect. I discovered a love for sports. Golf became much of my life and passion. I completed much schooling. I dated, thought I was in love on different occasions. Perhaps the best thing that happened to me was finding the love of my life, WOW how lucky am I!I continue to fall in love more and more everyday with him. I cant begin to describe my love for him. Through that I am privileged to live an amazing life I am blessed with one amazing daughter and another on the way. I truly live my dream and love it. I also compare much of those years to golf oh how there were so many times I swung and hoped for the best sometimes it panned out but much more times it did not. Now as I look to this next future I realize there can be no swinging and hoping for the best. I need my saviors help every step of this journey I am about to embark on. I need his help in raising my family. Two girls are going to be so hard, I'm sure I will discover grey hair in the next 30 years. I also may battle cancer, diabetes, or other illness in these next 30. During these hard times of trial and tribulation it may appear the only reason the ticker still sticking is for the release of "The Hobbit" although I know its for a greater cause. However I will also see my girls get married discover talents of there own. I will also discover more talents of my own. I will also get to a point where the kids are grown up and I retire with Brett and enjoy traveling and growing old together. See I have found happiness in what today brings. But its one step at a time and for now I am going to enjoy a sunrise, "the love of a good man, and one more day to be my little girls mom, I know I'm a lucky girl" and enjoy the simple things in life cause sometimes that's all we can do. Good bye all those wonderful years and hello to many more!

Millys Hunt

Our Little Family Easter Egg Hunt

Its not the same doing things with such a small family, sometimes I wonder if its worth the effort, until I see Millys expressions and smiles, she may be small but still loves having a good time. we couldn't wipe the smiles off our faces. She did such a good job as well, I guess after 4 hunts she got the hang of it. Brett also was able to find a few eggs with some emergency cash in them.

Easter Day 2012

Gotta love how she is watching us from the corner of her eye, thinking to herself can I get away with picking this flower!
I love Milly in this picture she may look like she is cuddling with dad, however she is actually scared of a Bee.



After church we took some pictures in our yard, can I just say I love my yard!! It may be a lot of work (work we don't do) but I love how it is beautiful regardless.

Pregnancy Thus Far

After going through a complete pregnancy once I have learned not to complain about every little pain. With Milly I didn't know that each day would just get worse so I complained everyday. With this pregnancy I know I'm just going to get more uncomfortable, more fat, and pains will just get more intense. So with that sad it has been a great pregnancy. Once again even though I may throw up here and there I am never rolling on the ground ready to die. Its never bad enough that I just cant mind over matter it and continue with my day. Some of the things that have been really hard for me is the face that I am getting bigger much faster. With Milly I didn't really start to show till about Mid April and with this one I started really showing sometime in Feb. This is hard for me because I hate the weight gain. Yes I know I am going to gain weight but that doesn't make it any easier. I am 7 pounds away from when I delivered Milly, I don't think that is a lot of wiggle room considering I still have 3 months to go. The only reasons I can come up with on why I am gaining is because I have been so extremely sick this winter starting in January I got a horrible head cold that took forever to go away about the time that went away I got Hand foot virus, and you may say adults cant get that, well it may be rare but I accomplished it. That was horrible I'm pretty sure the worst thing I have ever experienced. Soon after that I started having breathing issues after putting up with it for a couple weeks I finally went to the ER and found out I had Bronchitis and that takes forever to go away I am still having issues with it. I have been so scared during these times because of the medications I have had to take, even though all have been safe they still worry me (its just my nature. I guess all I can say is without the support from Brett, the love I get from Milly and the faith I have in blessings I have received I would be a complete basket case. I guess that sums things up, no weird cravings I do enjoy however late night drinks like Jamba Juice, Slurpee, and now Strawberries and Cream Fraps no coffee of course from Starbucks. Nothing weird at all I dont have crazy dreams, nor really anything. I am just bigger than I was with Milly and just as uncomfortable! Cant wait till July!!! Not sure if I mentioned these facts yet I first felt the baby move around the beg of March. Now I feel er all to much at 27 weeks. Also at 27 weeks Doctor says I have gained a total of 12 pounds for this pregnancy. Looks also at 27 weeks baby weighs around 2 pounds and thats something in the 65%.